Today's Link: Yamichi Works
Today's Music: Jack Johnson
Current Book: Red Rabbit by Tom Clancy
Today's Quote: "Art is man's noblest attempt to preserve Imagination from Time, to make unbreakable toys of the mind, mud pies which endure" Cyril Connolly
Yesterday, on the train to work, I noticed a bit of grafitti, It was written in Ball point pen on the plastic seats, so it was a bit smudged, but it was fairly standard graphitti, it said "**** & **** 4Ever" but with one difference... after "4ever" it also said "hopefully." I don't know if this is kind of funny, or kind of sad. It's funny from the standpoint of the realisim of it and the fact that between using a pen that would wash off, and the "hopefully" the person is clearly acknowledging the fact that at the stage of life when you write "4ever" relationships are not generally permanent. But it's also sad, because there's clearly a loss of the faith and hope of youth. I can only wish whoever wrote that the best of luck. You never know. I met my wife when I was 14. And now she's the Best Wife in the Whole Worldİ. So... I guess there's always a chance. I mean, how do you you know when you've met The One It took me 8 years to figure it out. I'm glad I did.
a couple of things happened. One was just sitting down one night with her and I knew I could share those fears I mentioned earlier- I could address my fears with her BEFORE I mastered them myself. I didn't know if she would hurt me with them, but I knew I trusted her and knew that I didn't care about keeping up a facade. Another was coming home one night and just sitting with Dude (my dog)- maybe I was really talking to God then, but I didn't know it- I wound up just realizing that she would be in my life forever, and I liked that. And that was after some stuff we'd talked about that indicated we had some differences and she could be volatile.... The third one was driving home from a gig together, and I was getting tired. I dozed off and caught myself. My reaction was not of the nature of hurting me or anything- the first thought that hit me was "Oh, my God! I could have hurt Paula!!" There was this spark or psychic connection, or whatever, but there was something tangible there between us.